又去逛部落格了
去了些从没去过的
今晚特别过敏
看着别人写别人的一字一句
触到
我似乎早已知道
却一直不肯承认的
自己
怕他人发觉
所以不断以他人来掩饰自己
以那些和我一样不断掩饰的人来掩饰
因为不喜欢自己这样
所以不喜欢别人也这样
因此开始不太能接受
他人的所作所为
忽然觉得自己很可恶
常常听见朋友说:
你自己还不是也一样,哪有资格说人家?
许多事
早就已知道原因、根源、问题所在
只是自己还是想兜几个圈、钻几次牛角尖
挤出几个借口 堵住它们
然后虚伪地活在暂时性的‘comfort zone’
直到有人发现
才肯虚伪地,慢慢去根治/掩饰
因为怕被人发现。
而在那期间
就会开始胡思乱想 胡扯乱掰
搞到好像自己真的很痛苦
很有压力
其实都是自找的。
从大乐乐网站‘盗’来的:
莎士比亞說:哲理---“一個人思慮太多, 就會失去做人的樂趣.”
最近有个朋友说:
我不写部落格了,都没有人看。
其实此地也没什么人光顾,我还是爽。
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Monday, August 30, 2010
何止蚂蚁
洗手时看见两只蚂蚁在墙上
动也不动。
以为死了
但还是好奇
仔细看看
原来它们围着一小滴水
也许是洗手时水不经意溅到墙上的
我不知道蚂蚁如何喝水
也不知道蚂蚁会不会贴在墙上就这样死去。
它们也许
只是想停下来
无聊时就会捏捏这类不起眼的昆虫
常常这样想:
世上少只蚂蚁多只蚂蚁干我何事?
今天却没有
我不知道我捏死它后
其它蚂蚁是否会哭。
本想把那一幕拍下来
可惜取出相机时
它们已都不在
只留一滴水。
动也不动。
以为死了
但还是好奇
仔细看看
原来它们围着一小滴水
也许是洗手时水不经意溅到墙上的
我不知道蚂蚁如何喝水
也不知道蚂蚁会不会贴在墙上就这样死去。
它们也许
只是想停下来
无聊时就会捏捏这类不起眼的昆虫
常常这样想:
世上少只蚂蚁多只蚂蚁干我何事?
今天却没有
我不知道我捏死它后
其它蚂蚁是否会哭。
本想把那一幕拍下来
可惜取出相机时
它们已都不在
只留一滴水。
Friday, August 20, 2010
believe.
duh.
was completely not a lovably week
with loads of distractions p/s: laporans ><
was totally in bad mood this whole week
and: yeah I was wrong
:(
sorry to dearsss and darlingssss
didn't mean to
sorry that I actually brought my personal feelings into so many issues
duhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I HATE THAT TOO, OK?
yeah I was still learning to control
as my EQ keeps dropping this year
which wasn't that pleasant :(
I am not trying to backstab nor to criticise
a MISTAKE?
yeah....BIG MISTAKE.
sorry to EXCOs, PBCs....
I used a wrong approach, yeah.
Time for everyone to change
to be more like yourself.
BELIEVE.
was easy if i want to, too.
now I realized
I believed in no one previously...
and erm...hmm....
I'VE GOT TO START BELIEVING.
yeah.
最近爱上细雨
淡淡地 隐隐地。
was completely not a lovably week
with loads of distractions p/s: laporans ><
was totally in bad mood this whole week
and: yeah I was wrong
:(
sorry to dearsss and darlingssss
didn't mean to
sorry that I actually brought my personal feelings into so many issues
duhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I HATE THAT TOO, OK?
yeah I was still learning to control
as my EQ keeps dropping this year
which wasn't that pleasant :(
I am not trying to backstab nor to criticise
a MISTAKE?
yeah....BIG MISTAKE.
sorry to EXCOs, PBCs....
I used a wrong approach, yeah.
Time for everyone to change
to be more like yourself.
BELIEVE.
was easy if i want to, too.
now I realized
I believed in no one previously...
and erm...hmm....
I'VE GOT TO START BELIEVING.
yeah.
最近爱上细雨
淡淡地 隐隐地。
Thursday, August 19, 2010
雨
雨很愁
愁得我一点也没有想笑的感觉
部落格也很愁
愁得我没有勇气看下去
放下
耐人寻味
不过这样
都办不到
只因执着
放不下
也许是时候放下
这一切
好好读书吧。
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