无题-续篇

今晚我依然继续逛部落

无意间发现我不晓得的
无意间发现他人原来在那一站挣扎过
无意间发现自己开始慢慢了解
我本来以为很了解的人

我看到
那一幕背后的故事

也许我不小心掀开了
别人心中的窗帘

但至少不是犯法的

我甚至看到
我不曾想留意的

如今却认为
我应该早一些去看的

原来看别人的部落
自己也会矛盾起来
还会心虚
还会让我的思绪徘徊于那一处

久久无法离开。

无题

因寂寞 睡不着
开了电脑

看着小说的开始
还是觉得不对劲
哈哈 不知还来不来得及

看着怪怪的散文
这种作品我怎么会写得出
实在烂

想开始写那封信了
哈哈 又不知从何开始

三心两意的
我决定逛部落去

发觉 原来大家都很忙
部落格也都冷冻了

哈哈 中四果然就不一样。

恨...？

没钱很惨吧
但偏偏就是没钱怎么办

但我就是那么讨厌打电话伸手讨钱
跟乞丐有什么两样

如果纯粹打个电话就有钱拿听起来很爽快
可有谁会知道电话里头的人说话有多讽刺

只有我知道

打一通电话
挨骂15分钟
加上所有的侮辱...
还要忍受这种生活多久

我能恨他吗？


我不知道。




我会崩溃吗？哈哈...
暂时还没。

Let's talk about the kursus...

haha
went to a some sort kursus kepimpinan for pengawas zon pudu
whoa~

at first it was like Oh My Gosh this is gonna be boring.............

but it's not exactly THAT boring =x
ok lar if i say it was'nt boring at all i must be abnormal Zz

there WERE some slots where we really kinda dozed off
especially the tanggungjawab part =. =

but how to say
overall it's just FUN =)

IF we really need to do inhouse training then we'll sure die
lol because what we actually learned this few days were not exactly theorical
there's something haha INVISIBLE? that i actually felt haha
erm.......i have no idea what it was Zzz

btw
hey it has been so long since i ever spoke ENGLISH (with no 'brokens')....
lol

and one thing i found out is that
some schools' prefects were really COOL
they were like...
if you imagine they walk by at pasar malam also they still look like prefects
haha....PREFECTS'LOOKS =x
the way they talk, the way they walk, the way they greet each other....
it's just so DIFFERENT`

just to say
the main thing i remember for now is I AM SANGUINE =)

anyway
ALL THE BEST FOR OUR SO CALLED 'NEGERI CHINA' SCHOOL...



WHAT I THINK~
=( food.....
=) friends......
=( the sleeping KP
=) interactive games?
=( the attitude problem guy that keep taking photos without permission
=) the song that we mumbled all the way without knowing the lyrics
=( the red stickers =. =
=) thanks mr. john and mr. chua

跨过

看见他们
伤心 悲观 全都写在脸上

发觉
自己进步了
哈哈

心情复杂时
不再无理取闹

也算是种进步吧？


哈哈

因为




我终究比别人幸运。


=)

得失

想起去年了

发梦都没想过得奖的数学比赛
竟然得奖
没花多少心思的小说
竟然也得奖

有人说
有得有失

那我什么时候才会“失”



许多事情
比期望的还高
从来没有想过的东西
竟然成了现实

怎么办

我开始觉得生活颠倒了

像活在一个虚拟的世界
但却不是

倒霉也许更好

我不想再幸运下去





我害怕。